The last of my string of unhappy posts.

So I've come to terms with things. It took awhile to stomach everything in but life goes on. Day by day I erased certain memories in a bid to lessen the pain and I have to say I'm coping pretty well. I told myself to emerge a stronger and better person, and I will work at that.

But still, don't expect me to be all nice and dandy to whoever that was involved. I really don't care if you 'unknowingly' or 'unintentionally' crossed the line because that is just pure bullshit. Perhaps I could slap you on the face and then say it was unintentional.

I think I've also come to the end of this blog. I want to start a new one filled with happy posts and better memories ahead. I had mixed feelings about it. I've had this blog since jc and there are so so many good memories that have been written and these memories have brought me to where I stand today.

However, I look forward to a new start too... and will keep my blog private.

So if you want to continue reading my blog, then do drop me an email at angie.lim@gmail.com or tell me when you see me.

Strong sense of resent.

I would very much like to know the truth even if it hurts right through the inner part of me.

You may think what's the point of explaining?

I would rather know then just go ahead with life leaving this grey patch behind.

Time ticks by, work fills in.

Today, I took half a day off.

Today, I felt the burden of work lifted off my shoulders.

Today, I treated myself to multiple epis of greys.

Today. The jigsaw pieces fell into place.

Then just, I had a very very strong urge to confront.

And now, I'm asking myself is there a need to.

At this very moment, my heart is heavy.

From this moment onwards, trust isn't exactly something you'll get very easily from me.

Trust. This word intrigues me now. How does trust get earned. Is it there in the first place? What happens when it's gone.

: (

Yesterday marked the closure of some aspects in my life.

And so today indeed marks the new beginning!! The start of the holidays.. and also my first day of work : ) So now I'm nicely wrapped up in my jacket because well the temperature is rather low here.

I kinda wished my bad luck would go away though. As much as I do try to think positively, it BOGS the hell outta me down. I woke up with a really sore back this morning and am still suffering from sudden jolts of pain now and then. What's happening back there??? Argh. I just wish the pain would go away.

It's soooo quiet here and I'm done with my tasks.. dum dee dummmm.... well I'd very much love to update with pics from my practicum experience but geez the pics are at home. Next time then!

For those who are worried about my mental and emotional health, please don't. I will be alright for time heals all wounds. : )

*waves some pomelo leaves to rid the bad luck*

Continuation from previous entry...

Well I've got photos of my monkeys too but I'll post them up when my 'final product' is done! haha I hope they're gonna love and cherish my little gift to them.

As the last week draws near, I can't help but feel like I want to bring them through the exams and everything. Yes the workload is darn heavy and everything but I hate to leave them just as I was getting to really get to know each and everyone of them well. They've warmed up to me and so have I to them.

This past week has been full of observations. And some of us were tired, some of us felt discouraged so it lead to a really really fattening week. *faints*. Dur to our observations being on different days, we went out almost every other day just to give each other a little nudge of encouragement and that came in the form of indulging in comfort food - icecream. *SCREAMS*

Well anyways, more photos!! I have a picture of each of us in our workspaces too but I wasnt too sure if they'd like their personal photos posted up so better check it out first. Haha.

Enjoy!

So QQ gets his nose flattened to a button by Khad : )


Tired feet everyday!!


Chilling out over refreshments in the afternooon


Acting funny...


Blending in....


That's me acting all studious at my desk : )

Pictorial Update on the people who have kept me sane through practicum. : ))

One of our crazy little moments at my table where we'd laugh at anything and everything. Form of destress?? Defo. And QQ captured it all. Darn. Hahaha everytime Khad glances over at the door, there'll be students there to see our erupting laughter and dramama movements. Image = SUPER GONE.



Khad... don't act act ar....


Our absolutely sinful 'let's cheer qq up' lunch. Pizza and milkshake = kim gets the runs. But she's fine now!


Funny sight of 3 adults staring at one watch, forcing their eyes NOT to blink cos they may miss the jump of the hour hand. Hurhurhur

Pictorial Update on the people who have kept me sane through practicum. : ))

Whoops no more time to uploads the rest!! Will do so again another time.

Quick post before I crash into bed again. : )

I had my second bout of sleep paralysis. -_-"" I was calm this time though, and just wished my brain would stop thinking, stop working and just go into sleep mode. It is really painful to lie in bed with a paralysed body and a mind that won't stop. For a moment I thought I was having mild seizures (but oh wells I think that thought just came from watching too much Grey's). I literally had to beg my mind to just STOP thinking. The running thoughts through my head geez man since when. Tell me since when did I have such a hypermind.

Anyway, this week I'd been working on oral presentation with my kids. They did such a great job I must say!! I was so impressed. *beams* hahaha well they came up with many many creative ideas like a puppet show, talk show, quiz, powerpoint etc. I couldn't help but feel ashamed of myself at underestimating these kids. So I decided tmr I will take pictures of their wonderful work and post them here. : ) : ) I'm so proud of them!! hururhur..

Well one more week to go, and one more observation to clear. Go me! Go everyone!!

For the past week or so, the complexity of human relationships have bothered me alot. I have so many questions and limited experience that can provide a good answer to my queries. So I've decided to go back to basics. Start with the very beginning and what I believe in.

To me, it's a process of rediscovering myself. To identify my needs and wants, and to reflect on what's been going on in my life so far. I think I really need this time to rediscover. I'd been feeling shitty just knowing that along the way somewhere somehow, I had lost myself.

: ) Well, it's almost 1am now. Crash time.

One last thing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEEWEEE APS!!! *hurhurhur*
Tks for always being there. : )

Today it all just went downhill.

I couldn't get over the fact that I was either being too hard on myself or it was just unjustified. The stress of not performing well enough for my ct's expectations was too overwhelming for me to bear and I think at certain points of the day I almost lost it.

It was a loonnngg day at school. The kids weren't exactly angels and I came down hard on them as much as I wouldn't have liked or wanted to but it was unbearable.

To top everything off, I ended the evening feeling like a stranger and a pile of crap.

I think I need some good ol' sleep. Start the day with a brand new outlook tomorrow. I can do it!